See The Future And Then Wait!

I just had a glimpse of my future today - a reading with a fabulous clairvoyant, Sax Francisco. And although it was done over the phone, I was stunned at her ability to hone in on my present situation and comment on how these things would change in the coming months.

I should tell you that this is not something I do on a regular basis, but I am coming to a place in my life where I need a bit of guidance, and where better to get it than from my own future. Sax came highly recommended by my good friend and Reiki Master Bernie Morin, and the sentiment was echoed by other friends whom I trust.

The feed back I got was very revealing and answered many questions for me on items like health and direction in life. Even now I am still pondering the issues that were revealed with great interest, and this is where the subject of this blog entry comes in. Now that I know what is going to happen, "What do I do now?".

The situations that were revealed to me are based on my life as it is now. If that is the case, then I really need to be doing what I would have done if I had not learned of the predicted future events. But it's hard. Now that I do know what is to come, I kind of want to help it along. Do the things that will help the predictions come to fruition. But maybe that's wrong. Maybe that's just what may cause the future to change or shift based on my knowing. It's a real conundrum.

That's the problem with knowing the future; you and I have to live in the present. In a way, knowing the future is a bit like knowing the past. It's kind of over there, and I'm here. The past has occurred and I can't change it, and the future has not happened but if I want it to occur as predicted, I can't change the way I'm living my life right now. Furthermore, I can't just do nothing because that would also change it. So you're stuck doing what you would have done even if you hadn't learned about the future.

So my advice is this, the future is great to know as a benchmark to where you are going, but spend your life living in the present. There's no waiting and no guessing, just the "now", free will at its best. Your life will find its way to wherever it is going because you are making it happen, right here, right now.

Just kidding around - really!

When you learn to still the mind, you begin to take notice of your thoughts and feelings as they occur. You become somewhat of an "observer" to your own life. As the observer, you are more cognizant of your own actions. You begin to view how you interact with the world and respond to the causes and effects you are constantly subjected to.

Lately, one of my observations has been about the fun-loving child that resides in me. Externally, I am a 39 year old male with the physical manifestations that are consistent with that, yet I can't help but feel that internally, I am much younger than that. I recall my years as a child and my teenage years in high school and can completely relate to all of that. Is it because I have not grown up? Not on your life!

I know I am an adult, especially when rearing or disciplining my children. Yet, when doing so I often wonder, "how do my children view me?". Do they see only this middle-aged manifestation, or can they somehow see that inside I am just like them, only with a lot more experience to draw from. But I know the answer to that question. All I need to do is to hearken back to my youth and to the imposing figure of my father and know he was not a kid I was seeing. We had totally different perspectives and did not see eye to eye. There was no comparison.

Now, extrapolating this kid feeling into senior citizenship and wonder, will I still feel youthful at heart then, or by then might I start to feel like a 39-year-old? Who knows. But my feeling is this: I'll probably still feel like a kid.

Why? Because as I continue to heal and become more in tune with my true self, I realize there is a lot of joy in life. And to enjoy life, one does not need to be stoic, serious, or uptight all the time. I feel like I can let loose because I no longer feel like I need to prove anything to anyone. Much like a child - more akin to freedom.

We often get trapped in a "desire" mode. In desire mode, we need more. More money, more status, more power, more stuff, more, more, more... It is in this mode that we ge locked-in to adulthood. We are so busy earning things, we have little time to play, and when we do play, we can hardly relax and let go. We can't let go because we think that joy is fleeting and soon we'll have to return to desire mode. We are prisoners of our own mind.

So my advise to you is to search hard to find that kid that's locked up inside you and let her/him out to play once in a while. You may find that being that kid is a vehicle that leads you to real freedom in your life - no matter what anybody says - especially the adults.